I am sad!As simple as that.

Today i am trying to stay on top of things. Not freaking out is a major task along with not hyperventilating! My dad did some tests and he has some serious kindey problems. His kidneys are failing and there is not a medicine for reversing that. He is also diabetic and has heart problems. So to help the kidneys they are cutting him off his heart medication. Right now i am searching the web for herbs that could help out. I know everything is going to be okay. And everything happens for a reason. But i am still sad and worried.
This is not the day i thought i was waking up into. I thought i had the day for myself. I have a massage scheduled and i was going to meditate, drink herbal teas and detox. Maybe hit the gym. And in a split second everything changed. My dad is sick. He is really sick. How do you cope with that? And why in Goddess's name i feel guilty for crying? Earlier in the phone i was trying to sound cheeper(it was kinda scary!). It is okay to be sad. It is okay to be scared. I do not want it to be true but it is. It is not a matter of perception. Which ever way i choose to see it he is still sick.
If you know any herbs that could help please tell me.
Love and blessings to all.

100th post

Today it has been raining all morning. Since i did n't have to work until three pm i could sleep as late as i wanted. So around 9 am i decided to sleep some more and finally woke up at 12 o' clock. It was still raining and i spent some time in bed watching the rain through the window and listening to the sounds of the storm. Beautiful feelings. Now almost three hours later, the sun is out and the street, the leaves, the trees, everything is glowing under the light. Everything is more beautiful after the rain.
This is my centennial post. When i started blogging i never thought it would come that far. And now with a coffee on my hand(one of those that have more calories than your lunch and smell like hazelnut) i feel like celebrating. I am so thankful for blogging. I really am. Although i do not hide my spiritual practices in real life and i am definitely out of the broom closet i do not have people around i can share experiences, thoughts and feelings.
A new moon is coming this Sunday, so it is time to get rid off some unwanted energies and cleanse our homes from negativity. So you could use the salt water potion i posted or smudge the house around. Of course most of you know that you begin at the East and end North so you can cast a protective circle, but i just mention it anyway. The most usual smudges are sage and rosemary. But these are n't the only herbs you can makes smudges of. You can use lavender for serenity and peace if there have been fights lately in your family. You can use eucalyptus for healing physical or emotional wounds or damiana that induces euphoria(it is said that it has a similar but milder effect with cannabis if smoked) and is also an afrodisiac as a tea. You can use lemon verbena smudges for health, beauty and lust, which is a great herb. The tea of lemon verbena helps you release the toxins and helps you to manage your weight by enhancing and stimulating your metabolism. I had drunk a cup a day for a week and i went down half a size without changing anything in my diet(although i should!). Plus it tastes great! I will start drinking it again. Other herbs that help with weight loss are flaxseed and anise.
I am considering of writing the physical information of herbs and plants in my BOS as well as their magickal attributes. Sometimes the natural and magickal attributes of a plant are alike. This happens in the case of eucalyptus. Breathing the steams of eucalyptus helps with asthma and colds. In magick eucalyptus has healing powers.
I think i have collected all the herbs i need for the section in my Book so i should begin writing them down.
Blessings to all...

A bit of happy rambling and a protection spell

This is an extremely peculiar time for me, peculiar but in a good way. I realised yesterday that some of my darkest thoughts no longer dwel in my consciousness. Some of my greatest fears seem to no longer affect me. And although the pain of the past is not to be forgotten so this tiny victory is not to be misinterpreted or ignored.
There were times that i thought i could n't make it, that i was neither strong nor patient enough to prevail. I am so thankful for the magick in my life,for those who love me and whom i love, for the Goddess and those who guided me through what seemed as an endless night. I know the fight is not over yet. There are still obstacles ahead. But now i know i can do it. Now i can have faith again, faith to myself and to my future.
Tears are burning my eyes. Happy tears, tears of relief. All these overwhelming emotions are welcome. Such power those emotions have, that i feel i should put it in good use. As a thank you to all my wonderful readers and followers here goes one of my favourite protection spells for the home. You will only need a glass, a spoon, water and some salt.
Mix the water and the salt in the glass until the water seems clear.
Go to the room in the East side of your home and say this chant over the glass.
Water and Earth wherever you are,
no curse could ever be held,
in the home where i reside,
i have the Goddess(or God) 's blessings
Νερο και χωμα οπου βρεθει
καμια καταρα δεν κρατα,
στο σπιτι οπου ζω εγω
εχω την ευλογια απο τη Θεα.
Make sure to cast the spell in every single room of your house as you move clockwise. When you are finished a proctective circle is casted. Leave the glass outside, either to a balcony, or to your garden, but hide it from the evil eye. It is not to be seen by anyone but your family. It will protect your home for as long as there is water in the glass. When it is gone you can do it again. Works better on a New or a Full moon.
Be blessed and love yourselves for who you are.

Book of Shadows and herbs.

Merry meet to all the ladies and lords of Blogland. Today i am in a much better physical shape. I can walk. I do n't cough so much anymore, i do not feel tired all the time, but the best thing of all is i sang today. My voice was gone for so long and i missed it so bad. I sang two arias, not very good, but still i can sing again. I do not think i appreciate my voice enough. It brings me so much pleasure, it alters my state of consciousness, it helps me cope when i have to and it relaxes me.I have to remember that, and cherish it.
On a more witchy kind of note, there is something i have been postponing for way too long, writing down on my BOS the most important herbs in my craft. I have been avoiding it mostly because it is time consuming but also because i am afraid i will forget something.I will not keep them in an alphabetical order so i can work on this "chapter" for a while and add whatever i want to in the process.
Although, i strongly believe in having real books as BOS, it is difficult to add or change something on them. But they worth it. Every time i see my BOS i feel a rush of power, just like my box of ashes. The rest of my tools are n't as important. My athame, my bell they can all be replaced. But my BOS and my box of ashes are staying in the family, hopefully long after i am gone! So i have to do it properly without mistakes. Of course, the book is growing as i am growing but i still feel i should be really careful. Have you written down your most important herbs and their correspondences on your BOS? Have you categorised them?

Grrrrr!

Since i am the non smoker of the family, everybody seem to take from me my lighters(steal is kinda harsh word hah?) and i can not have my ritual. This is the second time this week.For the love of Goddess, what 's a girl to do? Bang rocks together? It is a shame too, because i have picked up like a million pine needles to burn!
By the way we have a new government. Lets hope to some big changes in every single thing, and less corruption. Crossed fingers for this wish!
I sprung my ankle. You can say this is not my week! I knew that my box of ashes on the floor was a bad omen! In our whole garden there is a teeny tiny hole and of course, i stepped into it! If I was n't in pain i would kick myself in the a..! How clumplsy can a person be?
Petros has my lighter-s and i can not have my ritual(i wish i have figured it out before decorating the whole frigging living room with a limp!). So instead i will write my wish on a leaf and let it fly to the wind, because by the time he is back i will be sleeping! Do you have any idea of how i could celebrate without fire? I have done the leaf spell in the past and it was beautiful, but still, there were candles burning. I can not operate ike that people! Woooo! I am pissed off! Inhaling happy thoughts exhaling negativity, anger, frustration, need to swear, need to yell. Oh the list is big.
Happy Esbat to all of you who have a lighter around!

The Esbat and some protection tools..

Good morning. Happy Esbat to all. I hope that we will all have tonight the opportunity to celebrate and admire Her beauty. Here we have elections and the whole country is hoping for better days to come. I am optimistic. The election day falls on a full moon. It must mean something.
Today i woke up with a horrible headache. Aspirin's effect has n't kicked in yet. So celebrating will start as soon as i stop seeing dots. I am probably not doing the best possible thing by "inhaling" coffee since i woke up, but i can't help it, i need my coffee. Maybe on the new moon i will wish for the end of this addiction, but screw it! It is too good!
As i already told you we have elections here. What i have n't told you is that because i keep postponing to bring my papers closer to home i have to do a road trip today. I am trying so hard to see the bright side here, but the roads today will be crazy full and traffic jams with headaches don't mix very well. Although, i have n't left the house since i came down with the cold, so hopefully i will have a good time.
The weirdest thing has happened yesterday. When i walked into my office i saw my box of ashes lying on the floor face down. It creeped me out since my fur babies did not have access to it(door was closed) and even if they did they could not reach it(my altar is a shelf on my bookcase, and the box was behind the other items, but the only thing down on the floor was the box.If up there, which is pretty hard, he would have to drop everything else first) . I am trying to find a reasonable explanation, but i can't. No matter what happened my family heritage on the floor could not be a good sign. So although tonight i was planning for a prosperity spell, i will dedicate my ritual to protection. For incense i will use rosemary, thyme and sage. Instead of gold candles that i was originally going to use, i will burn red ones. And a great spell that translates something like
We are light, our love is stronger than you, you can not hurt us, darkness go away from our home, not even shadows can live here.
For those of you who can read greek here it is:
"Ειμαστε φως
ΕΙμαστε πολυ δυνατοι για εσενα
Δεν εχεις πως
να μας κανεις κακο κανενα
Γυρνα πισω αναμεσα στις σκιες που ανηκεις
Εδω ειναι αγαπη δεν εχεις ελπιδα νικης"
In greek sounds so much better. For starters it rhymes.
Anyhooo, if you want to protect your home the best tools are rosemary and sage for smudges or incense. Plant common rue in a pot and keep it on a balcony of your home. It drains all the negative energy from a house and the intense smell is supposed to keep away malevolant spirits. On the other hand, bay leaves are great for protection, but also enhances the power of your other herbs, like mandric root does. Mandric root and ginger make great protection potions if you boil them with water. But do not ever drink it, cause mandric root is toxic! Just keep it in a small bottle on a window, or bury it in your garden if you are lucky enough to have one. Last but not least red candles are very powerful, but they are ruled by Mars, so be extra careful what you wish for. If you have not mastered yet your visualising skills prefer white candles.
Have a blessed Esbat.

Still down..

Greetings to all the blogoworld. I am still sick but i have my voice back and i do not sound anymore like i recently had a sex change operation. Fever is down, i breathe through my nose(yeeiih)and the antibiotics seem to be working just fine. But i hate missing out on Autumn especially because the weather this week has been great. I feel the forests inviting me to walk them. But i can't! I am stuck here. So i tried crafting again. I cut paper(lots of it) into leaves and i painted some of them in a soft golden brown colour and some of them in a soft red colour. Then i scotchtaped them to a light pink wall in the living room. Originally i wanted to put them on the wall above the fireplace but it is painted in a dark colour and they did not look good.
Until recently i only thought seasonal decorating is something you do before Christmas but i have been following jaz 's blog for a while, and well, she inspired me..a lot. I love the way my house is changing like the season does. Petros says if i keep on doing it, that it will end up looking like a cafe. But what is wrong with that?
Anyway, an Esbat is arriving. I plan on celebrating Her beauty with some cleansing both body and house, some meditating, incense burning, chanting and spending time wih Petros. I will make a pop roast and a pie. And i am going to have a ritual Autumn bath,with a mix of herbs like lemon Verbena, rosemary, lavender. I will prepare some lavender sea salts as well. I can't wait for the Esbat to arrive. It is going to be so much fun.
I was thinking of adding some new practices to my craft. I do not use many shamanic tools so i will give them a shot. I am thinking of drums and humming. Maybe i will record something for meditation. Does any of you have any shamanic potions that i could make?