There is something magical in the night breeze! It makes the soul long for unknown things. It stirs up desire and witchcraft. It brings butterflies in my stomach to make the wind's need to speak to me through the leaves known to me. It makes me close my eyes breath deeply and surrender.
Sun and Moon blessings to all in this magical day, may the most ancient of Gods be always with you!
at 8:32:00 PM
Greetings blogfriends! Summer is finally here. I love the warm air of Greek summer. It is so enticing, tantalizing to the senses. The Sun, the smells, the sounds enforce such sexual invigorating energies. Solstice is almost here and if you listen closely you can hear the fairy songs and dances. Right now I am in my balcony drinking sweet peppermint tea with my little witchling.
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Greetings blogfriends! Today was my six month check up and I was so worried. I cleared my schedule so I had some extra time before my appointment. So after an hour and a half of vigorous exercise I bathed and did my hair and make up. I wore a pretty white dress. I wore pearl bracelets and pearls on my hair. I looked up the mirror and saw a woman almost dressed as a fairy or a bride and that there was nothing more to do. So, I began singing and then before I realized it was time for us to get in the car. There was a bit of a wait in the doctor s office which went really quickly with some chit chat with the receptionist. I went in and I tried to give all the information as clearly as I could and then there was nothing else but wait to hear the verdict. I watched the endocrinologist's facial expressions darken a bit before he began talking. My heart skipped a bit. It turns out I am clean as a whistle and completely cancer free. Just a few minor complications of the treatment troubled him. It seems I am not responding to some drugs I am taking, as well as he would like. This is why my metabolism is so low. He was reluctant to give me more, he feels I am maxed out on both t3 and t4 and yet somehow I am not absorbing them. He just told me to spread the doses throughout the day to see if it works better. There was a time I would be miserable about the appointment, crushed even. But you know what? I have seen so much worse, been so much worse. I can still lose weight(well that is if I stay under 900 calories with an hour of high intensity cardio 6 days a week, but still), I can sleep every night now, I have energy through the day, no more cramps, no more chronic pain(most of the time no pain at all if I am careful). I consider myself healthy because my body can do so many things it couldn't.
And I can enjoy so many beautiful things. Like truly offer myself to the triple Goddess and try to connect to all Her aspects. Brighid came to me to bless me through her fire healing energies in my hardest of times. She guided me, opened me up with Her creative surges, making me sing and write again. I pray to Her almost every day over 3 red candles that I light in a wreath made of intertwined grapevine twigs. I chant the spell 3 times while the smells of the incense engulfs me. One drop of my blood and then my soul just opens to all Her glory. After that I am ready to cast any spell I want. I am ready to call upon the elements and the powers of the universe to help my voice travel where it needs to go, to help my heart go where it needs to go. My inner voice and sight is stronger because of Her. Sometimes my little witchling joins me in prayer. She loves to throw more incense to the fire. She also loves to grind the leaves, petals, resins and oils together in her mortar and pestle. I am beyond blissful when we practice magic together and she enjoys it too. And then we go and cook together. She washes all the vegetables and I explain to her how all things that grow carry the love of our sweet Goddess. How she is blessed,cherished and protected by Her. How I am too.
Be blessed, be cherished and protected too my friends!
at 1:22:00 AM
I have been away for a long while and all this time I was working towards strengthening myself and getting all of my pieces together. Lately I've even started singing again something I thought I would lose forever if I took my thyroid away. I realized all those other reasons I would say to avoid surgery meant nothing and the thing I was afraid the most was this. Only when I took singing out of the picture I was able to move forward with my life saving decision. Now I have almost finished my six month check and everything looks great and soon my doctor will confirm that. I have lost a total of 57 kilos to this day(over the years). And as for my back I have mostly good days. But guys, I am just so happy. I am singing beautiful arias again. I have my health, my family, my voice, my work and a spiritual practice more evolved than ever. I feel so blessed especially because I am so much better than any other person I met that underwent the same course of treatment and on top of that I am a soprano again. I am working some of the kinks with a teacher but she thinks I will be able to audition as soon as September. Can you believe it? I might fail but who cares. There will be concerts and plays and so much singing. I am back you guys. Really!!!
I love you all. I will be back soon with a real post. Till then nighty night!
at 1:08:00 AM
Greetings blogfriends. I have been away for too long! But I have been busy reclaiming my health. I have been working out like crazy growing stronger every day. Also I have been on a personal version of the warrior diet and it is really working. Although I am still a bit hypothyroid my metabolism is better than I can remember without those nasty antibodies working against me. I have been told that this would happen by a few thyca survivors that I met but couldn't believe it. I sleep better, and my back pain was almost gone. Except that yesterday I fell down the stairs and injured my coccyx a bit which is a fancy way of saying... My butt hurts and a little bit my back, but I have gone a long way. If a fall like that happened in the past I would be bedridden for months. It was a scary fall and painful but the scariest part was until the immediate pain subsided and found out my back did not spasm out of control. And of course the humiliation. Almost all of the building's residents came to my rescue. A grown woman with an ass injury. Ridiculous. And then at the hospital having to say it again and again really worked wonders for my self esteem. Oh and did I mention that an ex of mine happened to be at the er? Embarrassment aside though, I feel so grateful. Sure my butt hurts, but my back is just a little sore. My health is restored a great deal. I am whole again.
As for my spiritual practice it is growing and expanding. Ever since I dedicated myself to Brighid I am more connected than ever. I practice magic daily and I feel blissfully full every time I do. Right now smudges, herbs and flowers are drying waiting to be used and to fill the house with their divine smells. My balcony resembles a zen garden more than ever and plants full of magical potential waiting for my attention. The spring is springing and the breeze awaits for my prayers. And last but not least I have a date tonight with the Goddess, spot Her in the sky this evening, She is going to be glorious. I love you all!!!
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