The window is open in front of me. The rain has stopped a couple of hours ago but the smell of the wet ground is so intense, that it makes me close my eyes just to have the full effect. Something truly amazing happened to me the day before yesterday. In the face of total disaster i did not freeze in panic, i did not collapse under the pain. I trusted that everything is going to work out and i did not try to hide away from the pain but to embrasse it. After a while the situation resolved itself by its own. And now i am free to soak into the beauty of the early fall and allow my senses to reach out to it. It seems like everything is getting cleansed along with Nature. Even my thoughts. It used to upset me that i had no pagan friends in Athens. Now i understand that when the time is right the opportunity will present itself. I was so afraid of my dark side. Today, after i realised Phoebe has peed all over my freshly cleaned sofa i let the anger flow through me. I realised that surpressing it did not do me much good so i let go. I am still not talking to Phoebe(even though she looks at me with her puppy eyes-do dogs ever lose that ability?- and she puts her face under her paws), but it is just because she has to learn not to pee on the fricking furniture! See? My dark side is free to have as many outbursts as needed.
What is it that makes Fall so special? Is it geological? Does it have to do with temperature? Whatever it is it fills me with a sensation that i can only imagine is similar to taking drugs, although i have never felt this good after consuming alcohol...This time of the year i am always like that, peaceful, calm but at the same time alert. Thank the Goddess and the God for the amazing gift that Autumn is, that humanity is, that life is.
Brightest blessings to all of you my blog friends. Have a beautiful and magickal week and do not forget to notice Her Beauty.
at 2:17:00 AM