19.10.14

Sort of a vent...

Hi there beautiful souls. I have been quite busy lately and that is the main reason i was gone from blogland. I have been going to kick box practice lately and for the most part it was going pretty well. That was until someone who is not even a trainer pushed my back down on an exercise in order for me to do it properly and i spasmed bad. That was two week ago. Since then there were some okay days and some horrible ones. The last three i have been in agony. Once again with ointments and heat pads and antiinflammatory medication. I have to go get checked out. It was really hard to let go my anger towards that ignorant person who by the way knew i have serious back issues.
But i realized that what i was really feeling was not anger but fear that everything will go back to me getting immobilized again and all my hard work that allowed me to do three kickboxing classes a  week will be for nothing. The pain justifies my way of thinking. When it gets as excruciating as it was it is easy to think that nothing is changed. But this is just a set back. Every time i will heal faster. And i will literally fight my way towards a  healthy back.
So, this post is to let go of my fear. I will get strong again. I will be pain free again.
Thank you for listening. Have a wonderful week.
Brightest blessings!

7 comments:

mxtodis123 said...

You have every right to vent. I know what back pain is. You are young yet. Don't make the same mistakes I did. Take care of your back now, don't overdue, and as much as I know you like kickboxing that may not be good for someone with chronic back issues. Hoping you feel better soon. I know how hard it is to give up things you really enjoy. I didn't take care of myself when I was young, so now just walking a block is a chore for me. Walking was once my favorite thing to do. Please take care of yourself and give yourself time to heal. Sending positive thoughts your way,
Mary

Leeanna said...

Oh my poor sweet darling girl. Back to square one is not where one wants to be. Take care of yourself, please. Don't give up on trying to get better. I'm past on ever having a great day because of my back. I should have thought about treating my body better when I was in my teens and twenties. They say hindsight is 20/20. I should have paid more attention.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I hope your back bounces back and you can return to kickboxing again! Sending you brightest blessings for a speedy healing.

angela said...

You have every right to be angry but yes you need to let it go for your own good. I hope your back gets better very soon and you get back to kick boxing and maybe kick some butt!

Shadow said...

Talk about it, your anger will lose its grip on you.

And lots of healing blessings coming your way...

Lon said...

I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you my dear friend.

I wish you in getting well soon.

Magaly Guerrero said...

I sooo understand your fear, sweet witch; please don't let it immobilize you. Do other things, stretch safely, but don't fall into the fear of movement trap. I know I don't have to tell you any of this, but saying it keep my own fears in check.

Hugs and healing! ❤️