18.7.12

Life changing decisions caught me by surprise

Greetings wonderful blogfriends! I missed you terribly. But i have been lurking around your blogs, spying on your lives and your words of wisdom without making any comments most of the time. This last year has been extremely productive and amazingly artistic, but as my birthday approaches some things are becoming clear to me. I was on vacation in a beautiful isolated greek island called Mathraki. The beach was sandy, two klms long and we were the only two people on it for most of the time. The water of the sea had a green, blue and gold colour and it was so clear as if in a pool and pretty warm. The whole vacation was an extremely metaphysical experience and the place full of butterflies, chirping birds and a green forest that begun right after the beach was like a meditational creation of my imagination. I could n't ask for a more magical place. I stayed there for ten beautiful days, swimming all day long, hiking in the forest in the afternoons and i meditated every day. When your life so suddenly pauses for a while, and everything else seems to stay still you understand how hectic your ways are. For as long as i can remember, i have been doing too many things at the same time, trying too hard not to fail in any of them. I had to attend the university, my classical singing studies, and work full time. I was always overworked, overstressed living too many lives at once. Then i quit school and my work blossomed and my classical studies went great. This last year with two years left for my diploma, my studies became challenging and much more time consuming than i ever could imagine. I have one year left which i dread and cherish at the same time. But lately, i realised i want a baby. This, me the psychic, i had n't seen it coming. My plans were to take my diploma and audition for singing roles while working. But, i can not be a soprano, a working psychic and a mom. Two of those things would be too much just by themselves. So, the reality hit me in the face when i least expected it. After my diploma and all that work, i would n't sing anymore. It is the end of a wonderful and long journey. But i know i will not regret it. I want a baby. And this is a far more fulfilling journey, for me. I will give my best this one last year. But for once singing will be a hobby. It was never that. But being a psychic, expect that i lead a successful business, fills my every day with magic. I love singing, but in my core i am a witch. It is not just that i love it more. It is who i am. Filling my day with metaphysical activities, working on my magic and connecting with the elements and the Goddess, makes me happy. Makes me feel like i am home. Be blessed, be loved and be relaxed it is summer for crying out loud!

8 comments:

Diandra said...

Good luck wit your new-found paths and decisions!

The good thing is that you can keep up with singing, and take it up again with all your passion when you (and your child/ren) are older.

apinkdreamer said...

τι ομορφες αυτες οι αλλαγες στη ζωη σου!!!σου ευχομαι οτι καλυτερο!!!

Grammy said...

Sounds like an amazing vacation. And I an so happy to hear you know who you are and now what you want. Some times it takes a life time to answer those questions. Thank you for stopping by. Hugs, I am grateful for your support.

angela said...

So mote it be! You will find that one day the singing will come back into your life in ways you never dreamt of. Good luck in your new endeavour I hope your babe comes to you sooner rather than later! Blessed be

angela said...

So mote it be! You will find that one day the singing will come back into your life in ways you never dreamt of. Good luck in your new endeavour I hope your babe comes to you sooner rather than later! Blessed be

safire said...

Thanks for the follow! I hope you achieve all your dreams. I know one of the reasons I started on my journey in 2009 was to be a good mother (some day). :)

Walk in the Woods said...

Oh my, your vacation sounds like a dream to me. I have often said … for years now … that an ideal vacation (or life, it seems) would be on a secluded Greek island.

As for the rest that you express, I can relate. Well, to the having so much that paring back becomes vital - even with "good" stuff. As to wanting a baby, how exciting. As for singing … I can hear you singing … to your baby.

Peace.

Jen said...

A new term I've learned recently is that there are seasons to life. Singing will return in another season and all things will ebb and flow as your mothering will evolve. your future child/children will be so lucky to have such a well rounded and talented mama!