My Book Of Shadows!

Hello everybody! Did you miss me? I am sorry i have n't posted for a while something that had n't to do with child abuse! What an adventure though! With all that going on i forgot to mention that i bought a new book of shadows! My previous one was very pretty, a beautiful notebook, small, but cute! I wanted to make one to pass on to my children for a long time! So i visited Istar a new occult shop, which i fell in love with and there it was! It called out to me! It costed 50 euros and it is handmade, decorated with leaves and a triquetra and it has about 150 pages! I love it! I made an entry with a spell of initiation, which i think suits the first page. And the second page i filled it with information about the Box of Ashes, that i already told you about! I decided that i will not divide it into issues like spells, potions, divination etc. I think the Book of Shadows is meant to be a part of a witch's life. It grows as she grows and it follows the needs of her. So i guess it is going to be a mess, because i am a mess! But that's okay! I also want to decorate the entries i make with pictures! But i can not draw!And that is an understatement! I am awful! I hope i will have a child one day that can draw so the book will be beautiful. I tried to make a pentacle in the first page but do not worry i used a pencil!
I also have some new crystalls that i am waiting till Sunday to charge! A new Esbat is coming! Do you have the feeling that time flies and we are just trying to catch on? It has been a month since the last full moon and it felt like a second! So i am going to celebrate this Esbat the best i can! Last month my plans were destroyed by a huge fight with P. But it was tough astrological for almost everybody, Mercury retrograde, Full moon in Scorpio.. What did you expect? Sanity? Not in this house!
I also made an Esthir! It is a potion (more like a cream) that brings lust! I have a friend that she was feeling selfconscious lately and i made it for her! I tried it on me also! That was fun! P. loved it! I definitely loved it! I tried it on an other friend and she got a date and some good comments! Now we will have to wait and see how it will work on the person that i made it for!
Blessings to all of you, my beautiful, beautiful friends!

I want an athame!

I love my country(Greece) but when it comes to wicca it can let you down.
I have n't found yet a decent occult shop in Athens. Don't get me wrong there are a couple of them, but they are creepy and i can't help it but shiver at the entrance. You can find there -when your eyes get used to no light at all- animal parts (iou!), books of black magic, pictures and dolls of demons. I think those shops are making a stereotype by themselves!
And i also hate the whole situation because i do not want my ingredients to carry that kind of energy. I grow some herbs by my self but we all know that this is not enough. Essence oils, candles or ingredients to make them, herbs you can't grow or don't have enough, you have to buy them from somewhere. So i choose to ignore those facts and get what i need for my craft.
But there is one thing that i can not convience my self to buy from one of those annoying places and i really do not think i should. This is my athame. It is such a big deal that i have considered giving a lot(!) of money that i do not have to a jewellery store to have it hand made, or simply buying a dagger but it seems lame! Until i find a satisfying solution i am using a beautiful paper knife that unfortunately is not very sharp.
If you have any ideas about what i can do please feel free to elaborate.
I wish to all of you a great sunday evening and an even better and more creative new week!
Blessed be*