An update and some meditation exercises.

Pfff! I understand that it is just some people's job but for the past hour a woman was trying to convience me that i need a water filter. She was surprised i did n;t want that. But it was "free"(122e to install it and after six months another couple of hundred).And then she could n't believe i did n't have any friends that would like it. She said i should open my cellphone and ideas would come. I tried to be polite but after three quarters of an hour ,i am never getting back, my patience was over.
But was i sure? My mother already agreed to pay it for me. I had to raise my voice to make her stop! I swear that woman-my mother- sometimes is unbelievable. Once she has bought a set of pots, that i am stuck with and they are not convenient at all, for 2000e and she was happy.
This was n't the topic i was going to blog about but i got a little worked up. The last couple of weeks whenever i try to be nice it blows up into my face. What is the universe trying to tell me, that i should n't be polite?(okay now,you know i do not mean that right?)
Anyhoo,i am addicted again to diet coke. Has anybody else noticed that coca cola is more addictive than pepsi max? I am in denial too. I am not that sure that it is bad for me. I am telling you, so that you can bring be back to my senses. So, be ruthless! I have exchanged all my wonderful teas with coffee and coke and i am not sure it s bad. The mind works in mysterious ways. Like the chocolate thing. I am telling myself it is good for me. There are studies that prove it. Of course i eat the monthly ammount the studies are talking about on daily basis. So, it is super good for me! lol
Anyway, after my breakdown last week i came down with a bug. My immune system was n't at its best with me crying every moment of every hour. So i have n't worked at all. First it was psychological, then physical, so now i have to work like crazy to pay my bills. But i really could n't do anything about it. Other times i am just lazy, but this time i was in a really bad shape. Beside all the obstacles, i am feeling much better. I have n't meditated yet, although i really need it, but now i am finally ready.
So, this must be the time for some basic meditational techniques.
First of all, you have to make sure of two things. That you will be comfortable and that noone will interrupt you. Close the lights, put a blanket over your legs(our body temperature falls when we meditate),stay in a comfortable position and then close your eyes. Breathe deeply and slowly. Try to use your diaphragm. Let you thoughts come but do not pay attention to them. Then start focusing on body parts(you might feel them tingling). Begin from your toes and slowly work your way up to your third eye. A great exercise to help you descend the levels of consciousness is to visualise a ladder of some sort(or a beautiful and elegant staircase if you prefer) and climb down stair after stair until you reach the bottom. I always count seven stairs, but if you feel you need more, count more. When you are at the last step, jump to the floor. Whether the leap is big or small you will not feel fear or pain. Now you have reached a big hall with doors. Open the first one. In my first door there is a dragon. In the second door there is a magical natural place. Visualise what you want. Maybe you want to talk to a totem animal, maybe to a spirit quide. When you are done, get out, close the door behind you and climb up the same amount of stairs you counted at the beginning. Before you open your eyes give yourself a treat. Say positive affirmations that you need to hear. "I am beautiful. I love myself. I have everything i need." Then visualise yourself the way you want to be. Whenever you are ready take a deep breath and open your eyes.
Insences that help are jasmin,rosemary,cinnamon. A tea of valerian root right before your meditation would help also. You can burn white, silver and purple candles. And clear quartz and amethyst are the crystalls to use.
Brightest blessings, love and light to everyone.